The Ambivalence of Parenthood

I'm 37. I could go either way and be happy. It's stressful as hell.

I didn’t grow up with an inner knowing that I wanted to have a kid. I also didn’t grow up with an inner knowing that I didn’t want to have a kid. So what does a person swimming in ambivalence do?

During my 20s, I thought I would probably have a kid someday. I didn’t reflect on why. I was never confronted with it until I fell in love with someone who had…