This essay is FANTASTIC. My heart was screaming YES along with every paragraph - and that last quote from Hedva? Wow.
My mum has spent the last week working on my disability payment application for hours and hours. She keeps telling me that, even though I’m twenty five and can’t work due to my condition it is very unlikely they will accept. It’s so inherently fucked up. I never realised how twisted this capitalist culture of ours was until I could no longer participate in it.
I too struggle with actually resting and taking care of myself when ill. Mostly I blame the annoying Capitalist voice in my brain for this as I was really good at being sick when I was a kid...something about starting work shifted all that. And I think a lot about the pressure to recover in two or three days when any doctor will tell you that even the common cold can take up to seven days for recovery.
My mum is retired now and she made the observation, the last time that she got sick, that she always convinced herself illness didn't last long but she realised that she was giving herself a day or two at most to actually *be* sick, and then drugging herself up so she could get back to work despite definitely still needing to be in bed.
Hi KSC Hatch! Thank you for the compliment about the collage.
Thank you for sharing this. Yes, that damn capitalist voice! How freeing it would be to be able to take however much time we need when we're ill and not have to worry about work. Maybe someday!
Listening to this feels like the most seen I've ever felt -- I've ever been. From beginning to end: absolutely incredible. I didn't even know if this was a series of feelings that others feel/felt/are always feeling, too (but isn't that another ableist trick: making you think that the most "radical" thoughts are just delusions, you're just sick?), but to hear that there's a name to describe this line of thinking, that others feel it too... thank you so much for sharing your story and these ideas. Incredible, inspiring work!!!
There's something deeply wrong with a state that doesn't give a shit about us. Isn't that why we have states in the first place? To make sure that we all have our needs met?
Another great post. Thank you.
This essay is FANTASTIC. My heart was screaming YES along with every paragraph - and that last quote from Hedva? Wow.
My mum has spent the last week working on my disability payment application for hours and hours. She keeps telling me that, even though I’m twenty five and can’t work due to my condition it is very unlikely they will accept. It’s so inherently fucked up. I never realised how twisted this capitalist culture of ours was until I could no longer participate in it.
That collage is amazing.
I too struggle with actually resting and taking care of myself when ill. Mostly I blame the annoying Capitalist voice in my brain for this as I was really good at being sick when I was a kid...something about starting work shifted all that. And I think a lot about the pressure to recover in two or three days when any doctor will tell you that even the common cold can take up to seven days for recovery.
My mum is retired now and she made the observation, the last time that she got sick, that she always convinced herself illness didn't last long but she realised that she was giving herself a day or two at most to actually *be* sick, and then drugging herself up so she could get back to work despite definitely still needing to be in bed.
Hi KSC Hatch! Thank you for the compliment about the collage.
Thank you for sharing this. Yes, that damn capitalist voice! How freeing it would be to be able to take however much time we need when we're ill and not have to worry about work. Maybe someday!
Like the collage....keep it up!!❄️❄️⛄
Listening to this feels like the most seen I've ever felt -- I've ever been. From beginning to end: absolutely incredible. I didn't even know if this was a series of feelings that others feel/felt/are always feeling, too (but isn't that another ableist trick: making you think that the most "radical" thoughts are just delusions, you're just sick?), but to hear that there's a name to describe this line of thinking, that others feel it too... thank you so much for sharing your story and these ideas. Incredible, inspiring work!!!
There's something deeply wrong with a state that doesn't give a shit about us. Isn't that why we have states in the first place? To make sure that we all have our needs met?
totally! it's truly horrific.
Thank you so much for reading, Emily!
thank youuuu!